for years i had been drowning

but nobody tried to pull me out

as i sunk deeper and deeper

into nothingness.

 

i couldn’t close my eyes,

my eyelids were heavier than steel

and numb, as if frostbitten

the burden on my shoulder

weighing me down as i fell,

the words i left unsaid

still lingered at the tip of my tongue,

kicking and forcing their way out of my mouth,

but never heard

for the water had canceled them,

turned them into meaningless noise,

another addition to the sea of entropy.

 

the thoughts i couldn’t share

remained inside my head,

forever haunting me,

never released,

never free.